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Nine Years Ago...
 
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No, Doc has the right of it. I never intended for things to go this badly for this long. I have always intended to finish that drawing.

As for lack of correspondence for at least the last 5-6 months, I think I know what happened. I would've seen his messages if I had actually logged in to
gmail, but I have it auto-forwarded to my Thunderbird client on my machine. I had a new computer since about July, and the email program that installed
didn't have the "training" for the spam filter that the one on the other machine did. Doc emailed me infrequently at best. And at least the last
couple of emails he sent me seem to have gotten snagged in the new spam filter. (I also noticed JUST today the message counter at the top of yuku. I almost
never get anything through that and I'm not used to looking up there.)

(shakes head) I can't believe it's been so long. And that ONE DRAWING has been my personal demon. I keep wanting to do something "special"
with it to give it some kind of flourish that would make up for not having delivered for so long. But... I'm just not that good of an artist.

Not to make excuses here. I just want to try and let you into my head a bit. I have suffered a crashing lack of confidence in myself over the past few years in
terms of my art. I know it sounds utterly insane and stupid, but I've actually been AFRAID to draw. When I look at what I'm doing, I keep thinking
things like "this is just utter CRAP... what am I even DOING with this?" The sad part is, once I actually get an art pad and just do idle sketches,
the actual act of doing so is kinda relaxing in a way. It's just getting started and keeping up with it till I have something finished that's a
problem.

And always - ALWAYS in the back of my head, there's this little voice saying "why are you doing ANY drawing at all other than finishing THAT
ONE?"

Frankly, I want to exorcise this demon and get back to drawing because its fun. And never take another commission again unless it's something easy like
just a portrait.

And I want to be as much of a gentleman about it as I can considering it IS my fuck-up after all.

I'm considering some options:

1) Buckle down and finish the damn thing. It's 80% complete as it is. The faces are DONE. the poses are DONE. Mainly it's the details like how the
bodies intersect with the water and the background that have always frustrated me. I'm thinking my friend Lee Madison (who does the badge and t-shirt
artwork for A-Kon) might be able to help me. I'm calling him up right now, In fact. He has a way with backgrounds. (If you've been to A-Kon, then you
should know this already).

2) Do the same as above, but send Doc 20 bucks along anyway by way of an apology.

3) Send double the amount by way of an apology and consider the matter over with regardless

What do you think? I think #2 sounds right to me.
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Nine Years Ago... - by DocMui - 11-13-2009, 07:32 AM
[No subject] - by Epsilon - 11-13-2009, 07:46 AM
[No subject] - by Sofaspud - 11-13-2009, 07:55 AM
[No subject] - by Bluemage - 11-13-2009, 08:24 AM
[No subject] - by Bob Schroeck - 11-13-2009, 04:54 PM
[No subject] - by robkelk - 11-13-2009, 05:31 PM
Art - by Rev Dark - 11-13-2009, 06:26 PM
[No subject] - by jpub - 11-13-2009, 07:37 PM
[No subject] - by Logan Darklighter - 11-14-2009, 03:02 AM
[No subject] - by robkelk - 11-14-2009, 06:52 PM
[No subject] - by DocMui - 11-14-2009, 07:15 PM
[No subject] - by Bluemage - 11-14-2009, 07:39 PM
[No subject] - by Herr Bad Moon - 11-14-2009, 07:42 PM
[No subject] - by robkelk - 11-14-2009, 09:43 PM
[No subject] - by Star Ranger4 - 11-16-2009, 09:35 PM
[No subject] - by DocMui - 11-17-2009, 04:06 AM
[No subject] - by Logan Darklighter - 11-17-2009, 01:32 PM
[No subject] - by DocMui - 11-18-2009, 06:40 AM
[No subject] - by Logan Darklighter - 12-20-2009, 12:08 PM
[No subject] - by ECSNorway - 12-20-2009, 11:01 PM
[No subject] - by DocMui - 12-21-2009, 06:25 AM

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