(05-05-2019, 12:53 AM)Labster Wrote: Dartz gets it. The problem is that sticky settings like Tenchi Muyo and MCU and DCU and Ranma have a tendency to make all crossover plots look like them, which makes writing other kinds of plots more difficult.
.... *Sighs*
Okay. Fuck it.
I'm gonna be straight up with you guys here.
I have been tempted several times to go home, and take this ball with me, because of stuff like this, here.
I thought it would be a fun project. But every time I think we're getting somewhere, this or something else happens, and I have trouble coping because I feel like anything I do just blows up in my face - like last time when I had trouble communicating why having Ben make a social faux pas that makes everyone angry at him is most emphatically not a good idea. (It would require a whole story unto itself.)
So, this is how it is.
I've got a lot on my plate right now. I've got my first appointment with the Neurosurgery Department, which is probably going to be where I will need to determine the direction the rest of my life takes. I'm behind on my rent, as usual, because my car has an intermittent electrical issue in the ignition system that is gonna be a fucking pain in the ass to figure out, and may or may not be complicated by a slowly dying fuel pump. I really should be looking at registering for classes here, but I'm not because I'm pretty sure I'm on academic probation now, and I don't want to fuck myself again by taking classes that I can't spare the mental bandwidth for because I'm worrying over other shit and/or too depressed to bother going.
You want to know how fucked up my existence is? My brother in the Marines has bought ANOTHER CAR for me - this time a 2013 VW Jetta. Guess what happened not even one day after he bought it? He managed to mix up first gear and reverse and fucked up a Corvette. And not just any Corvette. It happened to belong to the Driving Safety Coordinator of his base.
The only good thing was that he was paranoid and over-insured the Jetta with $100,000 for property damage. But because of the accident, he won't be able to transfer ownership of the vehicle for SIX MONTHS.
And we already bought a plane ticket for me to come over there and drive it back.
That is how fucked up shit is for me right now - that even when other people try to help me, that effort gets fucked up even before anything falls to me!
I don't need this being a worry in the back of my mind. But unfortunately, my ADHD+Aspie brain doesn't play nice with me. It likes to throw shit like this, along with whatever the hell else it wants to, into the forefront of my mind whenever it can get away with it. And then Anxiety comes long to spew vitriol over the whole thing and set it on fire.
I don't need this.
I really don't.
Here are your options:
One.
We stay the course. It's all fine and well to critique something and say that it's going to be hard to do. But instead of just leaving it at that, how about we try and come up with solutions instead of just problems to keep us from thinking of solutions?
Two.
You guys go ahead and bow out. Rob and I will just go ahead and redo this whole thing with just two apartment managers and go from there.
Three.
I put an end to this because it is really bad for my mental well-being.
I don't like Option Three, and I don't really think Option One is gonna happen.
I apologize if anyone feels like they just got their head bitten off, but this is just the sad reality of things for me. And as I've already said, I don't need this.
Please, figure out what you guys are gonna do.
I'm gonna try and sleep this off, and hopefully be awake in time tomorrow to make my appointment.