The scariest thing about being a Madboy, is that you just can't control what triggers it. I mean, I didn't start because I wanted to, I did it because I just had to confirm it. I had to know if I was right and there really was a danger. And then I loaded it up into a reaction simulator and I watched it go and it scared me. And then it sparked, inspiration struck and I just had to...... I couldn't help it. You can't help it You can't think about anything else, you can't focus on anything else. Not work. Not people. Not class time. All there is, is that flare in your mind and the ideas sparking off it. The obsession just sort of consumes your mind and eats its way out until you can't sleep at night because the seething cauldron in your brain just won't die down and no matter how much you don't want to build it and how much you even hate knowing about something so sinister, you know you'll go insane if you just don't let it out and let it let you go.
So you go down to the computer, boot up autoCAD, and sketch out a design for a weapon capable of turning a good chunk of the moon's surface into glass.... solely because you have to know it's possible. And it is. And wen you see it on the printer, you see how you can improve it too. It just flows, filling your mind with inspiration you don't want to have a can't contain. Just add a speed-drive coil to the tamper and it'll old the implosion together just a few milliseconds longer and maybe now you can use it as a trigger for something bigger......
I stopped myself before I built anything real. I deleted the plans the next day. But I can't erase what I learned, and I can't loose the feeling that I know sin.
That's the dark side of madness. Sometimes it goes places I really wish it wouldn't go....
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So you go down to the computer, boot up autoCAD, and sketch out a design for a weapon capable of turning a good chunk of the moon's surface into glass.... solely because you have to know it's possible. And it is. And wen you see it on the printer, you see how you can improve it too. It just flows, filling your mind with inspiration you don't want to have a can't contain. Just add a speed-drive coil to the tamper and it'll old the implosion together just a few milliseconds longer and maybe now you can use it as a trigger for something bigger......
I stopped myself before I built anything real. I deleted the plans the next day. But I can't erase what I learned, and I can't loose the feeling that I know sin.
That's the dark side of madness. Sometimes it goes places I really wish it wouldn't go....
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--m(^0^)m-- Wot, no sig?